I did NOT want to wake up; I am not used to waking up after having so little sleep the night before. I would do it all over again to talk to my Person :)
After getting JJ off to school, Hubs and I were eating breakfast and watching tv when my phone rang. It was my OB calling to touch base with me, let me know how some of my bloodwork came back from the last appointment, and to find out when I was seeing the hematologist again. Last week, they took blood to test numerous things, one of which was my insulin levels or my glucose...I don't know. It was something to check if I needed to do a 2 hour diabetes glucose test. My hemoglobin came back at 5.something...6.something is full blown diabetes. She told me I was pre-diabetic, but she felt that with some weight loss, I would be able to nip that in the bud. My next appointment is at the end of the month; we will see then if I need to continue the blood pressure meds (I'm suspecting I will need to stay on them until I lose another 30 pounds at least.)
The rest of the day was spent relaxing and doing a whole lot of nothing because I had an appointment at 1:40pm. That appointment went well. My blood pressure was up, but my temp was normal this time. I had lost a pound from the week before. And my platelet count was up. Last week it had been 47k; this week it was 60k. The dr wanted to have me come back in two weeks to check my platelets again, and then see her again in four weeks. She's hoping that my platelets will continue to increase on their own without the need for steroids. Please continue to pray that my health continues to improve!!!
I honestly can't tell you what happened the rest of the day. I know I cooked dinner, and I know that Hubs and I hung out in the living room after JJ went to bed. The main part of my day was the phone call from the OB and the results of the hematology appointment.
Today, we spent the day mostly out. I finally went and got measured for a bra :cringe: It actually wasn't as traumatizing as I had led myself to believe it would be. I was wearing the right cup size, so that didn't go up, thank goodness. I just had to find a bra with better support. I ended up with a new outfit as well, but I am contemplating returning it. I didn't really need a new outfit; I only went in for bras. We went and got Hubs two pairs of shoes.
I finished that book, What We Do For Love. It ended up being really good, even though I teared up quite often while reading. I could see lots of things that I do, but then I could see things that I hope I never do. I am trying not to shut anyone out. Sometimes I just don't want to talk about things.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
It's Like Rain On Your Wedding Day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take...
Who would've thought...it figures
~Alanis Morissette, Ironic
It's just been that sort of day. I worked on a hat, then Hubs and I went to walmart to return/exchange JJ's Easter outfit. I was hoping for one size larger, but they didn't carry the outfit any larger (that I could find, and we went to the other walmart just to be sure.) Thankfully I still had the receipt, so we returned it (and it was so stinkin' cute) and decided that we would just let him wear an outfit he already has for Easter. He just needs a tie.
From walmart, we went to Burger King to grab some lunch (since we were already out). We decided to go to the mall to see if they had any boy Easter outfits. Of course, they didn't. Well, they did, but they stopped at a size 6. For the older boys, you had to buy everything separate, and that was just too expensive at a department store. His dress pants that were too big on him at the beginning of the school year are almost too small on him now. I'll probably let Momma take a gander this weekend and then decide if he needs new pants or not.
We decided to go ahead and pay the cable bill since we were right across the street. I went in, and of course, only two people were working, and there were ten people in line. I waited because the bill needed to be paid, but dang were they slow. Thankfully, there were only two customers that really needed help; the rest were there to pay the bill or turn in equipment.
We went from there to get JJ from school. We listened to our story; it's getting really crazy now :) I already have recommendations for what to read next; I can't wait! JJ did his homework, although he really just wanted to go outside and play. He was only able to play for about half an hour because we had a give back night at Chilis that we had decided to go to already. I was glad we left early because it wasn't crowded, and I didn't feel rushed. JJ saw two teachers from his school. He was all smiles.
Our dinner was really good. We had great conversation and laughs; I do love my boys! But I also felt as if the Fates were mocking us. We were in a back section of the restaurant, and every table around us had a baby. Babies of all ages. And they were all so cute. And we waved and talked to most of them because that's just what most people do to cute kids. And I was ok...until I saw JJ playing peek-a-boo with this huge grin. I asked what he was doing, and he said "Playing peek-a-boo with the babies. I love playing with babies. They are soooo cute!" And I could see the longing in his eyes. I looked at Hubs and felt my shoulders sag. I felt so helpless and defeated. He gave me a sad smile, and I returned it...and we watched JJ interact with the babies. When it was time to leave, I turned around and saw the baby...the new baby...in the carrier facing Hubs. I thought I would lose it right there. I turned around and said "I am SO sorry. I didn't know that you were facing a new baby the whole time." We talked about it in the car...but before that, JJ's friend from across the street had come by to say hi...so when we left, we went by their table to say bye. It was cute, how happy JJ was to see his friend.
We made it through our evening. Hubs worked on school stuff, JJ got ready for bed, and I worked on my hat. Once JJ was in the bed, we watched Biggest Loser. I still worked on my hat. Hubs and I talked about what happened in Chilis. I told him the Fates were mocking us...we were surrounded by babies of all ages...and then that newborn baby staring right at Hubs. I told him how I thought I was okay until JJ started playing with them. I said "He wants to be a big brother so badly." And I cried. Hubs came and grabbed me in a huge hug, and I held on for dear life.
Life is so dang unfair sometimes. I just feel like screaming and throwing things around. Then I stop and reconsider and think "Maybe I'll just throw soft things so I don't cause any real damage to anything." Throwing things won't help; not really. Maybe for that second it will relieve some of the frustration, but it won't make me feel any better.
I was able to talk to my Person for several hours. With everything that's happened, it's been over a month since my Person and I have talked. (Hey now, don't hate. If Meredith Grey can have a Person, so can I.) We talked about everything. Life in general, books, hair, dealing with grief, books. My Person is A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I don't tell her enough; she listened, then distracted, then listened some more. It was way too late when I went to bed, but I felt like I had dropped a load off of my shoulders. I told her that I was so lucky to have Hubs and JJ because I knew they were what helped me keep on keepin' on. Sometimes it's a chore, but when I see the boys smile, it's completely worth it.
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and sings it back to you when you have forgotten how it goes." ~Author Unknown
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! You too? I thought I was the only one." ~C.S. Lewis
"To the query, 'What is a friend?' his reply was 'A single soul dwelling in two bodies.'"~Aristotle
It's the good advice that you just didn't take...
Who would've thought...it figures
~Alanis Morissette, Ironic
It's just been that sort of day. I worked on a hat, then Hubs and I went to walmart to return/exchange JJ's Easter outfit. I was hoping for one size larger, but they didn't carry the outfit any larger (that I could find, and we went to the other walmart just to be sure.) Thankfully I still had the receipt, so we returned it (and it was so stinkin' cute) and decided that we would just let him wear an outfit he already has for Easter. He just needs a tie.
From walmart, we went to Burger King to grab some lunch (since we were already out). We decided to go to the mall to see if they had any boy Easter outfits. Of course, they didn't. Well, they did, but they stopped at a size 6. For the older boys, you had to buy everything separate, and that was just too expensive at a department store. His dress pants that were too big on him at the beginning of the school year are almost too small on him now. I'll probably let Momma take a gander this weekend and then decide if he needs new pants or not.
We decided to go ahead and pay the cable bill since we were right across the street. I went in, and of course, only two people were working, and there were ten people in line. I waited because the bill needed to be paid, but dang were they slow. Thankfully, there were only two customers that really needed help; the rest were there to pay the bill or turn in equipment.
We went from there to get JJ from school. We listened to our story; it's getting really crazy now :) I already have recommendations for what to read next; I can't wait! JJ did his homework, although he really just wanted to go outside and play. He was only able to play for about half an hour because we had a give back night at Chilis that we had decided to go to already. I was glad we left early because it wasn't crowded, and I didn't feel rushed. JJ saw two teachers from his school. He was all smiles.
Our dinner was really good. We had great conversation and laughs; I do love my boys! But I also felt as if the Fates were mocking us. We were in a back section of the restaurant, and every table around us had a baby. Babies of all ages. And they were all so cute. And we waved and talked to most of them because that's just what most people do to cute kids. And I was ok...until I saw JJ playing peek-a-boo with this huge grin. I asked what he was doing, and he said "Playing peek-a-boo with the babies. I love playing with babies. They are soooo cute!" And I could see the longing in his eyes. I looked at Hubs and felt my shoulders sag. I felt so helpless and defeated. He gave me a sad smile, and I returned it...and we watched JJ interact with the babies. When it was time to leave, I turned around and saw the baby...the new baby...in the carrier facing Hubs. I thought I would lose it right there. I turned around and said "I am SO sorry. I didn't know that you were facing a new baby the whole time." We talked about it in the car...but before that, JJ's friend from across the street had come by to say hi...so when we left, we went by their table to say bye. It was cute, how happy JJ was to see his friend.
We made it through our evening. Hubs worked on school stuff, JJ got ready for bed, and I worked on my hat. Once JJ was in the bed, we watched Biggest Loser. I still worked on my hat. Hubs and I talked about what happened in Chilis. I told him the Fates were mocking us...we were surrounded by babies of all ages...and then that newborn baby staring right at Hubs. I told him how I thought I was okay until JJ started playing with them. I said "He wants to be a big brother so badly." And I cried. Hubs came and grabbed me in a huge hug, and I held on for dear life.
Life is so dang unfair sometimes. I just feel like screaming and throwing things around. Then I stop and reconsider and think "Maybe I'll just throw soft things so I don't cause any real damage to anything." Throwing things won't help; not really. Maybe for that second it will relieve some of the frustration, but it won't make me feel any better.
I was able to talk to my Person for several hours. With everything that's happened, it's been over a month since my Person and I have talked. (Hey now, don't hate. If Meredith Grey can have a Person, so can I.) We talked about everything. Life in general, books, hair, dealing with grief, books. My Person is A.W.E.S.O.M.E. I don't tell her enough; she listened, then distracted, then listened some more. It was way too late when I went to bed, but I felt like I had dropped a load off of my shoulders. I told her that I was so lucky to have Hubs and JJ because I knew they were what helped me keep on keepin' on. Sometimes it's a chore, but when I see the boys smile, it's completely worth it.
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and sings it back to you when you have forgotten how it goes." ~Author Unknown
"Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: What! You too? I thought I was the only one." ~C.S. Lewis
"To the query, 'What is a friend?' his reply was 'A single soul dwelling in two bodies.'"~Aristotle
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Catching up
*This is Sunday and Monday. I had Sunday's written, just never got around to posting...so I decided to combine the two days.
I woke up at what seemed regular time; it was only a half hour later than I usually wake up. 8am. I sat down and finished Saturday's blog entry, loaded pictures to the computer and got another post done with the pictures that I have been promising to share. I felt very productive. That is possibly the most productive thing I managed to accomplish the entire day.
The book I had been reading was about this shopaholic pregnant lady. When I finished that book, right away I started another; just something I do, and after the pregnant lady book, I needed something new to get my mind off of that. It was a murder mystery called Weddings Can Be Murder. It was really good! It was about a serial killer. I read the whole book. Thankfully, I will have two more books from the library. One is by an author Tami Hoag. I normally LOVE her writing, but after reading the serial killer book, I decided to go for the other book. It's called What We Do For Love. (Now, you must know. I pick books randomly at the library. Sometimes, I just go to a section and grab a title that catches my attention...one time that book was Eat, Knit, and Die Young. Sometimes I grab a book because I know I have read an author and know that I like just about anything by that person. I grab books because their cover photo is intriguing. Sometimes I actually read the back or the inside cover flap, but not usually.) So, this book...I must have grabbed because the title sounded interesting...like a good romance, and I haven't been reading a lot of those lately. I was crying in the first chapter. I went back and read the inside flap, and it made me wonder if I should have just left the book in my bag. It's a book chosen before everything happened, so it's quite possible that I DID read the flap and just forgot about it after the last few weeks we've had. I renewed everything online this last time so that I wouldn't have to just return the books without reading them. The first two chapters of the book were about this couple that had been trying to have kids...she'd had 2 miscarriages...they had decided to adopt. The agency set them up with someone...and for the last 6 months of pregnancy, they went with her to every appointment, decorated a nursery...everything. The girl goes into labor and at the hospital decides she wants to keep the baby. After that, the couple gets pregnant (completely unexpected) and she carries to term...only to have the baby and she passed away when she was a few days old. :sigh: Now the couple is getting divorced because she didn't know how to deal with her grief. She shut down and forgot about her husband and his grief. When she finally realized (years had gone by) and it was too late. :whew:
Now...Hubs and I have a fabulous relationship. He is my best friend. We talk about this and are going through this together. He lifts me up, and I do my best to lift him up. I know that it's actually very common for that to happen after a tragedy. We both believe in our wedding vows. In sickness and in health. In good time and in bad. Til Death do we part. As long as we both shall live. Every single word spoken at our wedding: the truth. Before we married, I told him to make SURE that he knew that *I* was the one he wanted to spend the.rest.of.his.life.with because I believed in til death do us part, as does he. I know I've said before, but I feel it needs to be said again. I hate that we have to go through this, but I can't imagine having to go through it with anyone else but Hubs.
Dang. I skipped over the whole rest of my day. I started talking about the books...really, the rest of my day was pretty boring. I felt like I was battling the eating all day (and not so sure that I was winning)...the weather was beautiful, but I never managed to get out of my pj's. We were all bums until the little boy across the street asked if JJ could come outside to play. He jumped up and said "let me get dressed!" and played outside for a while. We did watch Honey I Shrunk The Kids on hub. We also watched National Treasure and Forrest Gump on TNT. I played Facebook games; Hubs wrote a paper. We laughed at JJ every time we hugged because he would come flying out of nowhere and proclaim "I want to be part of the family hug! Don't leave me out!!!" He's a mess. He wedges himself between us and wants to be smooshed in the middle. At one point, JJ asked me when we were going to hug again, and I said "Eww. I don't want to hug him. Gross." And JJ busted out laughing and said "whatever Momma. You're being crazy." Ahh. He knows me so well :) (I absolutely LOVE hugs...I'm definitely a huggy-kind-of-person.)
Monday, I got up with JJ to get him ready for school. After Hubs took him and I had breakfast, I decided to work on some hats. I finished one I had been working on then started another. I finished that one, then decided to take a break. I enjoy yarn work, but lately, I've had trouble focusing when I'm working on my own. When I've gone to Momma's and sat and talked to her while working on a project, it gets done super fast (so it seems)...Hubs and I made a point to eat an early lunch because it was karate night. We leave at 4:30 to go to Subway and get dinner before JJ's class so that he has time to eat, and then we go to karate class. It doesn't end until 6:45pm, and then we head home. Hubs got a call that his library book was in, so we decided to go during karate. (I wasn't sure we would have enough time, but he checked the mileage and said we would have plenty of time. He was right.) After lunch, I started another hat, but only worked a few rows. I decided to watch something on Netflix; it finished, and it was time to get JJ from school. Off we went, listening to our story. We are finally on disc 12 of 16! Yay. We might actually finish by the time they are due back to the library this time. We are on our final checkout, so if we don't finish, we have to turn the cd's back in anyway. :sigh:
At Subway, JJ's friend wasn't there because she was recovering from having her wisdom teeth removed. Her manager gave us a paper and pen so we could make her a get well card. :) I wrote the words, and JJ signed...then he drew a little picture. It was really cute. His people's fingers looked more like something from Freddy Krueger, but they all had 5 :) We made it to karate early. Hubs got JJ checked in, and then we were able to leave early for the library (made me feel better!) We listened to our story on the way to the library. Hubs turned in his book and three of mine; we listened to our story on the way back to karate.
When I first read the Twilight series, my sister asked me if I was Team Edward or Team Jacob. She would ask me after each book. I couldn't decide. After the first book, I loved her with Edward. In the second book, I could totally see her and Jacob together...I wasn't sure how I felt at the end of that book. By the fourth book, I felt that the series ended the way it was supposed to, the way it was written. But I never really fell into Team Edward or Team Jacob. Then a friend of mine posted on Facebook that she was Team Charlie, and I was hooked. Right then, I knew that I too was Team Charlie. I told this to Hubs, and he couldn't understand why I picked Charlie over Edward and Jacob. Last night, after we returned home from karate, he told me that he understood why I was Team Charlie, and he agreed. :) Now, I don't expect Hubs to fall over himself to watch the movies with me, but I enjoy when we have something that's "ours." We read Harry Potter together before Deathly Hallows Part 1 came out. We had both read the series on our own, but we decided to reread it, together. I read the entire series out loud to him. It was great bonding time.
We watched The Voice. I don't really enjoy the battle part as much as I enjoyed the auditions. Cee-Lo and his cat still crack me up. I didn't watch the final battle. I was so tired. I headed to bed, thought I would read a few minutes, and then get some sleep. I started reading and had some teary moments. As hard as it is to read about this woman's pain, I think it is good for me. Her and I will take this journey together, and hopefully, by the end of the book, she is able to find healing. I'm not perfect; I'm not healed...but I'm healing. I don't know how long it will take or if the ache will ever go away. But I am healing. I can laugh with my family. I know that this emptiness is not forever. I continue to thank God for Hubs and JJ. I know they are a crucial part of my healing.
"Jesus said, 'Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.' " John 14:1
"A broke heart becomes a lamp of fire when we allow God to breathe on it and warm us with his life."
"If things are tough, remember that every flower that ever bloomed had to go through a whole lot of dirt to get there."
"Regret will not prevent tomorrow's sorrows; it will only rob today of its strength. So keep on believing. With Jesus you do not have a hopeless end but an endless hope!"
I woke up at what seemed regular time; it was only a half hour later than I usually wake up. 8am. I sat down and finished Saturday's blog entry, loaded pictures to the computer and got another post done with the pictures that I have been promising to share. I felt very productive. That is possibly the most productive thing I managed to accomplish the entire day.
The book I had been reading was about this shopaholic pregnant lady. When I finished that book, right away I started another; just something I do, and after the pregnant lady book, I needed something new to get my mind off of that. It was a murder mystery called Weddings Can Be Murder. It was really good! It was about a serial killer. I read the whole book. Thankfully, I will have two more books from the library. One is by an author Tami Hoag. I normally LOVE her writing, but after reading the serial killer book, I decided to go for the other book. It's called What We Do For Love. (Now, you must know. I pick books randomly at the library. Sometimes, I just go to a section and grab a title that catches my attention...one time that book was Eat, Knit, and Die Young. Sometimes I grab a book because I know I have read an author and know that I like just about anything by that person. I grab books because their cover photo is intriguing. Sometimes I actually read the back or the inside cover flap, but not usually.) So, this book...I must have grabbed because the title sounded interesting...like a good romance, and I haven't been reading a lot of those lately. I was crying in the first chapter. I went back and read the inside flap, and it made me wonder if I should have just left the book in my bag. It's a book chosen before everything happened, so it's quite possible that I DID read the flap and just forgot about it after the last few weeks we've had. I renewed everything online this last time so that I wouldn't have to just return the books without reading them. The first two chapters of the book were about this couple that had been trying to have kids...she'd had 2 miscarriages...they had decided to adopt. The agency set them up with someone...and for the last 6 months of pregnancy, they went with her to every appointment, decorated a nursery...everything. The girl goes into labor and at the hospital decides she wants to keep the baby. After that, the couple gets pregnant (completely unexpected) and she carries to term...only to have the baby and she passed away when she was a few days old. :sigh: Now the couple is getting divorced because she didn't know how to deal with her grief. She shut down and forgot about her husband and his grief. When she finally realized (years had gone by) and it was too late. :whew:
Now...Hubs and I have a fabulous relationship. He is my best friend. We talk about this and are going through this together. He lifts me up, and I do my best to lift him up. I know that it's actually very common for that to happen after a tragedy. We both believe in our wedding vows. In sickness and in health. In good time and in bad. Til Death do we part. As long as we both shall live. Every single word spoken at our wedding: the truth. Before we married, I told him to make SURE that he knew that *I* was the one he wanted to spend the.rest.of.his.life.with because I believed in til death do us part, as does he. I know I've said before, but I feel it needs to be said again. I hate that we have to go through this, but I can't imagine having to go through it with anyone else but Hubs.
Dang. I skipped over the whole rest of my day. I started talking about the books...really, the rest of my day was pretty boring. I felt like I was battling the eating all day (and not so sure that I was winning)...the weather was beautiful, but I never managed to get out of my pj's. We were all bums until the little boy across the street asked if JJ could come outside to play. He jumped up and said "let me get dressed!" and played outside for a while. We did watch Honey I Shrunk The Kids on hub. We also watched National Treasure and Forrest Gump on TNT. I played Facebook games; Hubs wrote a paper. We laughed at JJ every time we hugged because he would come flying out of nowhere and proclaim "I want to be part of the family hug! Don't leave me out!!!" He's a mess. He wedges himself between us and wants to be smooshed in the middle. At one point, JJ asked me when we were going to hug again, and I said "Eww. I don't want to hug him. Gross." And JJ busted out laughing and said "whatever Momma. You're being crazy." Ahh. He knows me so well :) (I absolutely LOVE hugs...I'm definitely a huggy-kind-of-person.)
Monday, I got up with JJ to get him ready for school. After Hubs took him and I had breakfast, I decided to work on some hats. I finished one I had been working on then started another. I finished that one, then decided to take a break. I enjoy yarn work, but lately, I've had trouble focusing when I'm working on my own. When I've gone to Momma's and sat and talked to her while working on a project, it gets done super fast (so it seems)...Hubs and I made a point to eat an early lunch because it was karate night. We leave at 4:30 to go to Subway and get dinner before JJ's class so that he has time to eat, and then we go to karate class. It doesn't end until 6:45pm, and then we head home. Hubs got a call that his library book was in, so we decided to go during karate. (I wasn't sure we would have enough time, but he checked the mileage and said we would have plenty of time. He was right.) After lunch, I started another hat, but only worked a few rows. I decided to watch something on Netflix; it finished, and it was time to get JJ from school. Off we went, listening to our story. We are finally on disc 12 of 16! Yay. We might actually finish by the time they are due back to the library this time. We are on our final checkout, so if we don't finish, we have to turn the cd's back in anyway. :sigh:
At Subway, JJ's friend wasn't there because she was recovering from having her wisdom teeth removed. Her manager gave us a paper and pen so we could make her a get well card. :) I wrote the words, and JJ signed...then he drew a little picture. It was really cute. His people's fingers looked more like something from Freddy Krueger, but they all had 5 :) We made it to karate early. Hubs got JJ checked in, and then we were able to leave early for the library (made me feel better!) We listened to our story on the way to the library. Hubs turned in his book and three of mine; we listened to our story on the way back to karate.
When I first read the Twilight series, my sister asked me if I was Team Edward or Team Jacob. She would ask me after each book. I couldn't decide. After the first book, I loved her with Edward. In the second book, I could totally see her and Jacob together...I wasn't sure how I felt at the end of that book. By the fourth book, I felt that the series ended the way it was supposed to, the way it was written. But I never really fell into Team Edward or Team Jacob. Then a friend of mine posted on Facebook that she was Team Charlie, and I was hooked. Right then, I knew that I too was Team Charlie. I told this to Hubs, and he couldn't understand why I picked Charlie over Edward and Jacob. Last night, after we returned home from karate, he told me that he understood why I was Team Charlie, and he agreed. :) Now, I don't expect Hubs to fall over himself to watch the movies with me, but I enjoy when we have something that's "ours." We read Harry Potter together before Deathly Hallows Part 1 came out. We had both read the series on our own, but we decided to reread it, together. I read the entire series out loud to him. It was great bonding time.
We watched The Voice. I don't really enjoy the battle part as much as I enjoyed the auditions. Cee-Lo and his cat still crack me up. I didn't watch the final battle. I was so tired. I headed to bed, thought I would read a few minutes, and then get some sleep. I started reading and had some teary moments. As hard as it is to read about this woman's pain, I think it is good for me. Her and I will take this journey together, and hopefully, by the end of the book, she is able to find healing. I'm not perfect; I'm not healed...but I'm healing. I don't know how long it will take or if the ache will ever go away. But I am healing. I can laugh with my family. I know that this emptiness is not forever. I continue to thank God for Hubs and JJ. I know they are a crucial part of my healing.
"Jesus said, 'Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God; trust also in me.' " John 14:1
"A broke heart becomes a lamp of fire when we allow God to breathe on it and warm us with his life."
"If things are tough, remember that every flower that ever bloomed had to go through a whole lot of dirt to get there."
"Regret will not prevent tomorrow's sorrows; it will only rob today of its strength. So keep on believing. With Jesus you do not have a hopeless end but an endless hope!"
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Pictures!
FINALLY! :)
(From Maggie and Chris. Beautiful tulips that had been delivered shortly before we arrived home from the hospital. This picture was taken after three or four days.)
Roses from the Dunn family. The yellow teddy bear is for JJ to have to always remember the baby. When he found out, he wanted the bear to be put on his bed with his other "special" animals.
JJ in the bounce house at Little M's birthday party
Friday, a friend had posted about how crazy the moon looked (in MS!), and I went outside to check it out. I had to come back and get my boys and the camera....
I hope you enjoy!
Friday, a friend had posted about how crazy the moon looked (in MS!), and I went outside to check it out. I had to come back and get my boys and the camera....
Saturday Extravaganza
Even though we went to bed late last night (Friday nights are no bedtime nights), I was up by 7:30am. I ventured to the front so that I could play some games for a little while. Hubs was up not long later. JJ slept int til almost 9! Sleepyhead! :)
Hubs offered to cook breakfast: cheesy eggs and grits. I also made some toast, and JJ ate a cutie with his breakfast. He LOVES them because "they are easy to peel and have no seeds, Momma!" (In case you don't know, cuties are small oranges...clementines, I guess they are called. They taste like oranges...)
JJ caught up on some episodes of Transformers that Daddy recorded for him during the week. I did some reading, but I just can't get into this book. I'm almost halfway through, and it's a chore for me to read. I will probably pull the bookmark out and grab the next book in the library bag. I think I have another murder mystery. Those seem to be my faves lately.
I took a shower and got dressed...even put on some makeup :SHOCK: I haven't worn makeup in ages. I had just started putting a little bit on every day, even if it was just lip gloss when everything happened. I haven't worn makeup since. I've been putting moisturizer on (because I've been battling dry skin...and it's a good routine to have anyway to help your skin...) but nothing else...
We are taking JJ to Golfin' Dolphin today. HE.IS.SO.EXCITED. He has already requested a red golf ball. Hubs and I decided yesterday we needed to do something out as a family; we've been hermits on the weekends, and we need to get out of that. It makes it hard on Monday to get back into any sort of routine. So, we are off to spend the day golfing, possibly bowling, probably arcading. It seems like a fun thing to do. We are also going to stop by the river walk on the way to feed our old bread to the seagulls and fish :)
The seagulls were most happy with our old bread! We even saw a few pelicans fly overhead, but they didn't stop to join the party. I took pictures. I will load them right now! My poor camera is so full. I will do a separate post with the past pictures I have been meaning to post. (The bulk of them will be loaded to FB though.)
Running to the gazebo because he had seen geese through the viewfinder. He's hoping that they will turn around when he starts throwing bread.
The seagull party.
After we finished throwing all the bread, we drove to the Golfin' Dolphin. We stopped first for lunch and then began our Saturday extravaganza. We decided to go putt-putt first; JJ really had no concept at first. He wanted to push to ball along with his putter while he ran after it.
Then Hubs made him really watch what he (Hubs) was doing, so that he would have a better time at golfing.
After really studying what Daddy was doing, he started having a bit better luck. He even made some of the shots within par. After the first 9 holes, JJ and Daddy were tied with 29; I was close behind with a 32.
After finding out that he was tied for first, JJ started really trying. Here, he is checking the direction of the wind. (Yes. He seriously did this. Randomly. Even though the wind was obviously blowing in a certain direction, he stuck his finger in his mouth, held it up, and then said 'ok, the wind is going that-a way!')
I can't decide what he was doing here. I think he was giving Daddy the stink eye, trying to make him do badly so he (JJ) would 'win' this hole. Overall, putt-putt was so much fun. Even though it was windy, the sun was out, and it was a beautiful day. I think the sunshine did me a world of good!! In the end, JJ lost, by 10 strokes. His second half wasn't as good as his firsts, and we had a 5 putt stroke limit. Hubs and I ended up tying. My second half was AWESOME! (26!)...and Hubs' wasn't as awesome...but it let us tie :)
We went in the pro shop to turn in our putters and get some Gatorade. We then headed in to go bowling. We walked through the arcade part and decide to play some games first. Now, we have never played video games here, so we assumed we would either need tokens or quarters. No. We had to purchase a "gaming card" which keeps track of our money and the tickets that we've earned. It was pretty nice actually. We loaded $20 because you got an extra $5 as a bonus. The boys were able to share the card. JJ played mostly. Then they found the racing games. They each played on a motorcycle game seperately. JJ played a car game. He came in 2nd, then he came in 3rd. THEN they went around a corner and found the NASCAR game. JJ played and came in 17th. I figured for his first NASCAR race, he did pretty well, considering he kept trying to run the other racers over like in MarioKart. Hubs played next. I think he came in 4th. It was so funny watching him. He was REALLY into the race. Then JJ wanted to go back to the first set of car games and race together. So, they played that game several times. JJ couldn't function right because he kept looking over at Daddy's screen. It was pretty funny. Hubs won those, but it wasn't for JJ's lack of trying. We still had money on the game card, but we decided we would save it for another weekend outing.
From there, we decided to go bowling. I was feeling pretty tired, and I really just wanted to take pictures of the boys playing. We get the shoes (which JJ loved because they were velcro) and find our lane. I help JJ find the smallest ball around (a 6 pounder), and I started to move the rest of the bowling balls from our ball return. Then I stop and think...I'm not supposed to be lifting more than 5-10 pounds until I am completely healed. I was only given the all clear for the walking...so I sat down and told Hubs...it's a good think that I decided not to bowl. This is the first time we've taken JJ bowling since he was 4, and in his overexcited way, he ran, went past the foul line, and slid and banged his head on the lane. He hasn't wanted to bowl since (not that I can blame him!) Hubs showed him how to hold the ball, which JJ wasn't comfortable with (and I think the ball was a bit heavy for him still.) Hubs showed him how to granny roll. JJ rocked the granny roll. He didn't bowl very well, but he had fun. I honestly can't tell you what the final score was; I know Hubs scored over 100, but I wasn't paying THAT much attention to the score.
There were moments during the arcade play that I wanted to run to the nearest bathroom and hide for a while. It seemed that every corner we rounded, I almost ran into a pregnant lady with a cute baby bump waddling behind her older child and Hubby. But I kept reminding myself that I am made of stronger stuff than that, so I would take a deep breath, smile, and carry on. It didn't make it hurt any less, but I can't fall apart every time I see a pregnant lady.
We headed home after bowling. We got home about 5:30ish. We literally had been out All.Day. JJ played some Epic Mickey (he wants my help but doesn't understand that I haven't reached the level he's on) LOL. Then he watched a few different shows on Netflix. He can't really decide what he wants to watch now that he's finished with Inspector Gadget. I tried to get him to watch He-Man; we'll see, LOL. After dinner (various leftovers), Babe came on TV, so JJ watched that. It was on until after 10 though, so at the end, JJ just finally got up and said that he was going to bed.
I had been reading that book (the one that I couldn't get into)...I still couldn't get into it, but I wanted the husband to explain himself. He finally did, and the ending made me smile...but it took a long time for the book to get readable. The narrator of the book was a bit ditzy, so all of the reading was scatterbrained...off in so many directions, it was hard to follow along.
"God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
"I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me." Proverbs 8:17
"When children are secure, they feel free to be who they really are. That's how you and I can live, too. God is the only one who knows everything about us. He knows it all, and he loves you. What a gift in a world where there is so much uncertainty!"
Hubs offered to cook breakfast: cheesy eggs and grits. I also made some toast, and JJ ate a cutie with his breakfast. He LOVES them because "they are easy to peel and have no seeds, Momma!" (In case you don't know, cuties are small oranges...clementines, I guess they are called. They taste like oranges...)
JJ caught up on some episodes of Transformers that Daddy recorded for him during the week. I did some reading, but I just can't get into this book. I'm almost halfway through, and it's a chore for me to read. I will probably pull the bookmark out and grab the next book in the library bag. I think I have another murder mystery. Those seem to be my faves lately.
I took a shower and got dressed...even put on some makeup :SHOCK: I haven't worn makeup in ages. I had just started putting a little bit on every day, even if it was just lip gloss when everything happened. I haven't worn makeup since. I've been putting moisturizer on (because I've been battling dry skin...and it's a good routine to have anyway to help your skin...) but nothing else...
We are taking JJ to Golfin' Dolphin today. HE.IS.SO.EXCITED. He has already requested a red golf ball. Hubs and I decided yesterday we needed to do something out as a family; we've been hermits on the weekends, and we need to get out of that. It makes it hard on Monday to get back into any sort of routine. So, we are off to spend the day golfing, possibly bowling, probably arcading. It seems like a fun thing to do. We are also going to stop by the river walk on the way to feed our old bread to the seagulls and fish :)
The seagulls were most happy with our old bread! We even saw a few pelicans fly overhead, but they didn't stop to join the party. I took pictures. I will load them right now! My poor camera is so full. I will do a separate post with the past pictures I have been meaning to post. (The bulk of them will be loaded to FB though.)
After we finished throwing all the bread, we drove to the Golfin' Dolphin. We stopped first for lunch and then began our Saturday extravaganza. We decided to go putt-putt first; JJ really had no concept at first. He wanted to push to ball along with his putter while he ran after it.
Then Hubs made him really watch what he (Hubs) was doing, so that he would have a better time at golfing.
After really studying what Daddy was doing, he started having a bit better luck. He even made some of the shots within par. After the first 9 holes, JJ and Daddy were tied with 29; I was close behind with a 32.
We went in the pro shop to turn in our putters and get some Gatorade. We then headed in to go bowling. We walked through the arcade part and decide to play some games first. Now, we have never played video games here, so we assumed we would either need tokens or quarters. No. We had to purchase a "gaming card" which keeps track of our money and the tickets that we've earned. It was pretty nice actually. We loaded $20 because you got an extra $5 as a bonus. The boys were able to share the card. JJ played mostly. Then they found the racing games. They each played on a motorcycle game seperately. JJ played a car game. He came in 2nd, then he came in 3rd. THEN they went around a corner and found the NASCAR game. JJ played and came in 17th. I figured for his first NASCAR race, he did pretty well, considering he kept trying to run the other racers over like in MarioKart. Hubs played next. I think he came in 4th. It was so funny watching him. He was REALLY into the race. Then JJ wanted to go back to the first set of car games and race together. So, they played that game several times. JJ couldn't function right because he kept looking over at Daddy's screen. It was pretty funny. Hubs won those, but it wasn't for JJ's lack of trying. We still had money on the game card, but we decided we would save it for another weekend outing.
From there, we decided to go bowling. I was feeling pretty tired, and I really just wanted to take pictures of the boys playing. We get the shoes (which JJ loved because they were velcro) and find our lane. I help JJ find the smallest ball around (a 6 pounder), and I started to move the rest of the bowling balls from our ball return. Then I stop and think...I'm not supposed to be lifting more than 5-10 pounds until I am completely healed. I was only given the all clear for the walking...so I sat down and told Hubs...it's a good think that I decided not to bowl. This is the first time we've taken JJ bowling since he was 4, and in his overexcited way, he ran, went past the foul line, and slid and banged his head on the lane. He hasn't wanted to bowl since (not that I can blame him!) Hubs showed him how to hold the ball, which JJ wasn't comfortable with (and I think the ball was a bit heavy for him still.) Hubs showed him how to granny roll. JJ rocked the granny roll. He didn't bowl very well, but he had fun. I honestly can't tell you what the final score was; I know Hubs scored over 100, but I wasn't paying THAT much attention to the score.
There were moments during the arcade play that I wanted to run to the nearest bathroom and hide for a while. It seemed that every corner we rounded, I almost ran into a pregnant lady with a cute baby bump waddling behind her older child and Hubby. But I kept reminding myself that I am made of stronger stuff than that, so I would take a deep breath, smile, and carry on. It didn't make it hurt any less, but I can't fall apart every time I see a pregnant lady.
We headed home after bowling. We got home about 5:30ish. We literally had been out All.Day. JJ played some Epic Mickey (he wants my help but doesn't understand that I haven't reached the level he's on) LOL. Then he watched a few different shows on Netflix. He can't really decide what he wants to watch now that he's finished with Inspector Gadget. I tried to get him to watch He-Man; we'll see, LOL. After dinner (various leftovers), Babe came on TV, so JJ watched that. It was on until after 10 though, so at the end, JJ just finally got up and said that he was going to bed.
I had been reading that book (the one that I couldn't get into)...I still couldn't get into it, but I wanted the husband to explain himself. He finally did, and the ending made me smile...but it took a long time for the book to get readable. The narrator of the book was a bit ditzy, so all of the reading was scatterbrained...off in so many directions, it was hard to follow along.
"God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16
"I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me." Proverbs 8:17
"When children are secure, they feel free to be who they really are. That's how you and I can live, too. God is the only one who knows everything about us. He knows it all, and he loves you. What a gift in a world where there is so much uncertainty!"
Friday, March 9, 2012
We Were Made To Be Courageous
We were made to lead the way
We could be the generation
That finally breaks the chains
~Casting Crowns, Courageous
Today was a good day. Hubs and I got JJ off to school, and then we went to Golden Corral for breakfast. It was good; I didn't eat as much as I have in the past, but that's not necessarily a bad thing ;) We enjoyed our breakfast, and then headed over to walmart. We needed a few things (what else is new?) We walked around a bit, got what we needed, and left. It was starting to rain when we left, so we decided to get gas and then head home.
On the way home, I saw a billboard that said "Babies are a gift from God." I have always said that babies are a blessing, no matter the circumstances. That has been my mantra as of late...it seems many people are finding out they are pregnant. While my heart aches at the news and for a fraction of a second, I wonder why?...I KNOW that babies are blessings, and they should be celebrated.
We didn't walk this afternoon because of the weather. I finished the last of the puzzle....well, all but five pieces. I had one out for Hubs, and four out for JJ. JJ put the official last piece in when he got home from school.
I have no idea what puzzle I'll work on next. I know there will be a next one though; they definitely keep me busy.
Today was mismatched sock day at school. JJ was so excited to get to wear two different socks.
before school
We could be the generation
That finally breaks the chains
~Casting Crowns, Courageous
Today was a good day. Hubs and I got JJ off to school, and then we went to Golden Corral for breakfast. It was good; I didn't eat as much as I have in the past, but that's not necessarily a bad thing ;) We enjoyed our breakfast, and then headed over to walmart. We needed a few things (what else is new?) We walked around a bit, got what we needed, and left. It was starting to rain when we left, so we decided to get gas and then head home.
On the way home, I saw a billboard that said "Babies are a gift from God." I have always said that babies are a blessing, no matter the circumstances. That has been my mantra as of late...it seems many people are finding out they are pregnant. While my heart aches at the news and for a fraction of a second, I wonder why?...I KNOW that babies are blessings, and they should be celebrated.
We didn't walk this afternoon because of the weather. I finished the last of the puzzle....well, all but five pieces. I had one out for Hubs, and four out for JJ. JJ put the official last piece in when he got home from school.
Today was mismatched sock day at school. JJ was so excited to get to wear two different socks.
After school, reading his book on backhoes. (I was wrong yesterday when I said it was a book on bulldozers.)
When I was growing up, on Fridays we always had Little Caesars pizza for dinner. I decided earlier today that I'd like to re-introduce this into my life; we'll see how long it lasts, LOL. But for now, you can't beat hot n ready $5 pizza. We had our pizza while watching Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy. During one of the puzzles, JJ hollered "PICK I BECAUSE THE FIRST WORD IS IT'S!!!"...and I looked up, and he was absolutely correct :) When those shows went off, it was family movie night :) (Something else we used to do every Friday night with the three of us, but we'd just gotten out of recently.) Tonight's movie (thanks to Netflix): Stuart Little. Can you believe I've never read this book OR seen this movie? It is so stinkin' cute! JJ is loving it!!!
I've also decided that Friday is my "Paint My Nails in whatever crazy way I want day." Last week, I painted the tips red and then put a sparkly clear coat over them. This week, I decided to do something more normal...just painted the tips white and then put on a clear coat. My nails have grown so long from the vitamins. It actually looks like I have no polish or anything on, LOL.
We bought our new scale earlier, so I can't wait until Sunday morning to weigh in. As of last Sunday morning, I was down 18 pounds since the beginning of November. Small victories. Baby steps. Gotta continue to find the positive...
"We love because he first loved us." ~1 John 4:19
"...God will make something beautiful out of your effort and energy."
And one last quote that brought a smile to my face...talking about the differences between men and women...
"Even though we did start out in the same garden, we don't seem to be smelling the same rosebush."
Thursday, March 8, 2012
You Know My Heart Is Heavy
And the hurt is deep
But when I feel like giving up
You're reminding me
~The Afters, Lift Me Up
I woke up about 7:30 this morning and felt so much better. I didn't have the same achiness of the night before, and I wasn't feeling any chills. I took my temp: 98. I'll take it. I'm so glad that I broke the fever overnight.
I tried to eat the rest of my breakfast sub for breakfast, but after two bites, I realized it just wasn't what I wanted. I let Hubs have it, and I ate a bowl of Kix instead. I sat at the computer to finish yesterday's blog, then I played some on Facebook.
I finally went and got my walking clothes on, put my shoes on, grabbed my sweatshirt, and waited for Hubs to get ready. We walked our loop once; it's just over a mile. My hip hurt a little about halfway through, but it's been a while since I've done any exercising. I didn't feel as bad when we were done as I thought I would. A little over halfway around, this dog started following us and followed us all the way home. She was very friendly.
I thought I would get started on today's blog. Hubs and I have been talking while I write this :) It's almost time for some lunch, and then I should probably get some real clothes on instead of my walking clothes.
I felt so much better after my shower and changing into real clothes. We left to pick up JJ and spent the whole time talking while we waited. JJ got in the car, and he was in SUCH a good mood. He had a great day; someone had come to talk to them about dental health, and he got a goodie bag. Yes, JJ was MEGA PUMPED. He got TWO toothbrushes, a toothbrush pencil, dental floss, and an activity booklet. Plus today was their S.T.E.M academy (don't ask what STEM is because right now I can't remember...I think Science Technology, Engineering, and Math, but don't quote me on that.) He was able to get in with Mr. Caskey again. I'm not sure what their subject is, but today they learned about static electricity. They rubbed a balloon and watched it stick to different things...they even went to the playground to go down the slide and get shocked. JJ thought it was "super cool."
JJ didn't have much homework today because he already completed his math work for the week. Hub helped him with his spelling and his reading. His new library book is about bulldozers. He loves the books from the non-fiction section. He usually gets a book about animals, so I was surprised to see the bulldozer book. When he was finished, I helped him with Epic Mickey. He likes that he is "far-er than you, Momma!" He's a hoot. I then finished dinner. I had put a roast in the crock pot with some gravy and carrots...I made rice and squash and zucchini to go with it. JJ of course, didn't like anything but the rice, but Hubs and I enjoyed the whole meal. I'm excited for leftovers for tomorrow's lunch!
We watched Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy, and then I went to work on my puzzle. I am ALMOST finished :) I have four pieces set aside so that JJ can put the last piece in, but all I have left is the sky. The shades of blue are so close, so it's harder to see in the evening. I'd rather work when the natural light from outside comes in. I started feeling warm again, so I took my temperature and had a low grade fever. 99.6, boo. My hair is still achey, but the rest of me isn't hurting. I'm not having chills. So I filled my huge mug from the hospital up with ice water and have been drinking like crazy (which in turn causes me to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes or so.) Hopefully I just wasn't hydrated enough, and it was my body overheating. (I can hope, right?)
It's just after 9. Nothing very exciting is happening. Hubs has been watching news. JJ is in the bed. I thought I would get this blog finished so I could post it tonight. I have been considering posting my blogs in the morning for the previous day; we'll see.
Tomorrow, we are going to get breakfast out. We had actually planned this for the "Friday after the ultrasound"...then everything happened, and it just never seemed the right time. I decided it was time, so we are going to eat breakfast at Golden Corral in the morning (we have one here that serves breakfast on Friday!!!) Then I think we are heading to walmart. I know there were several things we mentioned, but I can't remember anything right now. I DO know we need to get a new scale. Ours weighed me at 8 pounds MORE than what the dr weighed me yesterday (and I weighed myself when I first woke up)...we've had it for almost 8 years (got it the first year we were married!) I want one like Momma's, so hopefully we are able to find one like that.
As I close tonight, I leave you with this last line of Footprints in the Sand, one of my favorite poems EVER:
But when I feel like giving up
You're reminding me
~The Afters, Lift Me Up
I woke up about 7:30 this morning and felt so much better. I didn't have the same achiness of the night before, and I wasn't feeling any chills. I took my temp: 98. I'll take it. I'm so glad that I broke the fever overnight.
I tried to eat the rest of my breakfast sub for breakfast, but after two bites, I realized it just wasn't what I wanted. I let Hubs have it, and I ate a bowl of Kix instead. I sat at the computer to finish yesterday's blog, then I played some on Facebook.
I finally went and got my walking clothes on, put my shoes on, grabbed my sweatshirt, and waited for Hubs to get ready. We walked our loop once; it's just over a mile. My hip hurt a little about halfway through, but it's been a while since I've done any exercising. I didn't feel as bad when we were done as I thought I would. A little over halfway around, this dog started following us and followed us all the way home. She was very friendly.
I thought I would get started on today's blog. Hubs and I have been talking while I write this :) It's almost time for some lunch, and then I should probably get some real clothes on instead of my walking clothes.
I felt so much better after my shower and changing into real clothes. We left to pick up JJ and spent the whole time talking while we waited. JJ got in the car, and he was in SUCH a good mood. He had a great day; someone had come to talk to them about dental health, and he got a goodie bag. Yes, JJ was MEGA PUMPED. He got TWO toothbrushes, a toothbrush pencil, dental floss, and an activity booklet. Plus today was their S.T.E.M academy (don't ask what STEM is because right now I can't remember...I think Science Technology, Engineering, and Math, but don't quote me on that.) He was able to get in with Mr. Caskey again. I'm not sure what their subject is, but today they learned about static electricity. They rubbed a balloon and watched it stick to different things...they even went to the playground to go down the slide and get shocked. JJ thought it was "super cool."
JJ didn't have much homework today because he already completed his math work for the week. Hub helped him with his spelling and his reading. His new library book is about bulldozers. He loves the books from the non-fiction section. He usually gets a book about animals, so I was surprised to see the bulldozer book. When he was finished, I helped him with Epic Mickey. He likes that he is "far-er than you, Momma!" He's a hoot. I then finished dinner. I had put a roast in the crock pot with some gravy and carrots...I made rice and squash and zucchini to go with it. JJ of course, didn't like anything but the rice, but Hubs and I enjoyed the whole meal. I'm excited for leftovers for tomorrow's lunch!
We watched Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy, and then I went to work on my puzzle. I am ALMOST finished :) I have four pieces set aside so that JJ can put the last piece in, but all I have left is the sky. The shades of blue are so close, so it's harder to see in the evening. I'd rather work when the natural light from outside comes in. I started feeling warm again, so I took my temperature and had a low grade fever. 99.6, boo. My hair is still achey, but the rest of me isn't hurting. I'm not having chills. So I filled my huge mug from the hospital up with ice water and have been drinking like crazy (which in turn causes me to run to the bathroom every 10 minutes or so.) Hopefully I just wasn't hydrated enough, and it was my body overheating. (I can hope, right?)
It's just after 9. Nothing very exciting is happening. Hubs has been watching news. JJ is in the bed. I thought I would get this blog finished so I could post it tonight. I have been considering posting my blogs in the morning for the previous day; we'll see.
Tomorrow, we are going to get breakfast out. We had actually planned this for the "Friday after the ultrasound"...then everything happened, and it just never seemed the right time. I decided it was time, so we are going to eat breakfast at Golden Corral in the morning (we have one here that serves breakfast on Friday!!!) Then I think we are heading to walmart. I know there were several things we mentioned, but I can't remember anything right now. I DO know we need to get a new scale. Ours weighed me at 8 pounds MORE than what the dr weighed me yesterday (and I weighed myself when I first woke up)...we've had it for almost 8 years (got it the first year we were married!) I want one like Momma's, so hopefully we are able to find one like that.
As I close tonight, I leave you with this last line of Footprints in the Sand, one of my favorite poems EVER:
The Lord replied: "My son, my precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."
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